📷 Circa 2012
“I realized I didn’t have a life outside of him and his dreams. I was basing my life and my future on his dreams and lost track of my own budding interests. I realized that in my efforts to be selfless, to please, and to be a good girlfriend….I’d lost myself, turned down the volume of my voice, and hung up my jersey so I could sit in the stands and root for him.” Alexis Jones
Marrying Matt was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Being a wife, a wonderful, Godly, encouraging, and supportive wife was one of the biggest dreams I had for my life. And so quickly, I dove in. Matt’s dream of playing Major League baseball quickly became my own dream…my ONLY dream. And inevitably…
“I slowly lost myself. Not purposefully, and I wasn’t even aware of it at the time, but little by little I sacrificed my own desires to to be the person I thought he wanted me to be. Not because he was asking me to do this, but because I wasn’t tuned into what really made me happy. I didn’t take time to discover that personal happiness makes you a much better partner.” Julie Shannan
You guys I read these words today in my book, “I am That Girl” by Alexis Jones, and I couldn’t have possibly described more perfectly ME…who I was during this season of my life. And don’t worry, I give myself grace. I didn’t know. I had never been a wife before. I was doing what I thought a good “baseball wife” should do. I had never moved around a lot, so I hadn’t learned the skills necessary and taken the initiative to adapt and get involved and find my own LIFE wherever we may be.
You don’t know what you don’t know, but the truth remains the same. I LITERALLY hung up my jersey so I could sit in the stands and root for him. I lost myself, so slowly, I didn’t even know it was happening. And the crazy part is, the version of myself that I was during those years, was NOT Matt’s favorite version. He didn’t like that my happiness so depended on him, let alone his career. He wanted my support, absolutely, but not 100% of my attention and interest.
Matt had fallen in love with a girl who knew herself, who was confident and independent, who had passion and goals and dreams of her own. For a season, that girl was nowhere to be found, but six years ago, she came back, and she’s not going anywhere 🔥
“I realized I didn’t have a life outside of him and his dreams. I was basing my life and my future on his dreams and lost track of my own budding interests. I realized that in my efforts to be selfless, to please, and to be a good girlfriend….I’d lost myself, turned down the volume of my voice, and hung up my jersey so I could sit in the stands and root for him.” Alexis Jones
Marrying Matt was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Being a wife, a wonderful, Godly, encouraging, and supportive wife was one of the biggest dreams I had for my life. And so quickly, I dove in. Matt’s dream of playing Major League baseball quickly became my own dream…my ONLY dream. And inevitably…
“I slowly lost myself. Not purposefully, and I wasn’t even aware of it at the time, but little by little I sacrificed my own desires to to be the person I thought he wanted me to be. Not because he was asking me to do this, but because I wasn’t tuned into what really made me happy. I didn’t take time to discover that personal happiness makes you a much better partner.” Julie Shannan
You guys I read these words today in my book, “I am That Girl” by Alexis Jones, and I couldn’t have possibly described more perfectly ME…who I was during this season of my life. And don’t worry, I give myself grace. I didn’t know. I had never been a wife before. I was doing what I thought a good “baseball wife” should do. I had never moved around a lot, so I hadn’t learned the skills necessary and taken the initiative to adapt and get involved and find my own LIFE wherever we may be.
You don’t know what you don’t know, but the truth remains the same. I LITERALLY hung up my jersey so I could sit in the stands and root for him. I lost myself, so slowly, I didn’t even know it was happening. And the crazy part is, the version of myself that I was during those years, was NOT Matt’s favorite version. He didn’t like that my happiness so depended on him, let alone his career. He wanted my support, absolutely, but not 100% of my attention and interest.
Matt had fallen in love with a girl who knew herself, who was confident and independent, who had passion and goals and dreams of her own. For a season, that girl was nowhere to be found, but six years ago, she came back, and she’s not going anywhere 🔥
